The Return of the Freak

I'M ALIVE!   I've been pretty absent lately.  I mean, well, you know...life happens.

Basically, I'm dying of an incurable disease called, "exhaustion."  It's also known as: Overworked, Overwhelmed, and Emotional Constipation.....it's a pretty broad disease covering any number of issues and varies person-to-person, which is why most people just refer to it simply as, "exhaustion."  It's general enough that it can cover all of your bases with just a simple, easy to understand word.  Not even that hard to pronounce either!!

Unfortunately for me, at this point, caffeine is only doing SO much and it's a short-term cure only, with positive side-affects only lasting for a few hours at a time.  Honestly, it's enough to make you want to move to change your name, pack your bags, escape to a tropical island and sip on alcoholic beverages and make sure people forget about your existence.

Ahhhh if only I were independently wealthy...or won the lottery...the things I could do.

Oh well, I'll get over it with about a month straight of sleep and quite possibly some heavy doses of medication (morphine?  Vicodin?  The options are endless....)

I do hope you all are enjoying your Memorial Day.  Which, by the way, is COMPLETELY misconceived by the general public!  This is enough of an issue that I must insist on taking a moment to clarify the matter for all you idiots....MEMORIAL DAY IS NOT Veterans Day.  OK?  It is commemorating all those who have passed on before us WITH a slight focus on those military heroes who have died for our freedom.  I'm just saying, please remember others as well.

Also, something coming up in the future...sometime in the next little while, I am  going to start another blog.  I will continue to update this one and it will continue to be me poking fun at my life! ;-) But my other one will be a bit more serious focusing on my Diabetes, Celiac, College, Work, and Life Lessons ;-) Knowing me, it probably won't be all that serious, but I can always hope, right??  Anyway, if you have any suggestions for Blog Titles, let me know.

Peace!

Busy Bee

Well, I can for real and for certain say that I am no longer a Senior.  How this happened?  I do not know.  But I got me mah big shmanshy diploma.

My gosh, though...my life.  I've been so busy lately that I'm constantly going someplace and doing something.  Today is the first time in WEEKS that I'm allowed to just sit down and relax.  I have NOTHING going on tonight!!!!  I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF!!!!!! I just can't deal with this whole "sitting around" thing.  It's weird.  I may go take a nap, because I'm so sleep deprived....I don't even know how I'm alive right now.

I just started a new job at Biggby.  Craziness.  My boss is a bit...odd.  But I love my job...except when I don't, which, honestly, isn't very often!  Thank God.

Anyway, I just found out GREAT news for the trip me and my friends are planning for July AND prom is tomorrow AND I had coffee...so I've successfully avoided any panic attacks today (this is a big deal for me right now...I've been having panic attacks almost daily! :p)!!!  I must say, I'm pretty dang pleased with life today!!

The one debby downer to today, is my food intake is being extremely restricted which makes me a grumpy pants...BUT, I shall live! ;-)

Well, I have nothing to say anymore right now...I just want to go finish my book and take a nap....and maybe make myself some pudding...hmmm...

Well, joy to the world!  Enjoy this FABULOUS weather!

Peace!

IMA SENER

Ah my, my....the life of a home schooled Senior.  This morning I completed my AP Calculus Test, then of course, being me, I had a doctor's appointment, then I came home to finish my gol' darn SENIOR BOARD.  Don't ask me WHY we have to make them, gah!!!  I must say, I'm a little proud of mine.  Hard work and glue-y fingers and it looks like my life: organized chaos.  I like it.

Anyway, tomorrow will consist purely of packing, home work, oh, yes...blood draw, not to mention MY SISTER IS GETTING CONFIRMED!! WOOT WOOT!  More power to you, baby-girl!  Then of course, the creme de la resitance (too lazy to get the proper accents from the internet), THE GREAT GATSBY MIDNIGHT PREMIER!!!!  Which is ACTUALLY a misnomer considering the fact that I'm going to a 10 PM "Midnight Premier" but whatevah.

Then of course there's the 4AM wake-up and departure for NC Friday morning.  So of course, I have to read a book, write a paper on it and gather ALL of my assignments together to mail in tomorrow...not to mention laundry to do.

Well, I think that was sufficiently random, scattered, and confusing for one night.  I'm thoroughly exhausted and stressed for no decent reason, and wasting all of my time watching Sherlock and browsing Facebook, checking the prom attendee list, and scallywagging on any website I stumble upon.  Sleep is for the weak...and the happy.

Lack of sleep DOES SOMETHING TO YOU!!!!  if you couldn't tell by this ENTIRE post.  I'm just losing my mind.  No biggie.  Stress not or you'll end up like me: jittery, jumpy, worn out, ready to punch a monkey, and...yeah, that's about it.

I'm nearing the brink, that's foh sho....it's enough to make you want to spout movie quotes from every decent movie ever made, including Princess Bride, Mean Girls, Legally Blonde, She's The Man and many, many more.  THEN AGAIN....I do that anyway!  So there's that...

Well, I should probably stop revealing just how mental I've become! ;-)

Peassabi!

A Dangerous Condition

Oh...oh....no!  I think...I might...it could be...that I...I...I just may be DYING!!!!  OH SWEET MOTHER OF LINCOLN!!!!  HELP ME!!!!!

Why am I slowly (but surely) dying??

What horrendous allergic reaction is causing me such lingering pain and misery that DEATH is even a viable possibility at this time??

I will tell you...though I do have to warn you, I'm trying to keep this on the DL....I mean, there aren't many people who suffer from this condition...it's fairly rare.  I can't decide if it makes me abnormal, I mean, it's not usually girls who have this condition and so I get a little self-conscious, you know?

(Deep Breath)

Wellllll...you see....ummmm...OK!  I'LL TELL YOU ALREADY!!!!  I'm allergic to...to...well...shopping!  OK?!  I'm allergic to shopping!

Side affects include: dizziness, nausea, paranoia, panic-attacks, migraines, stomach aches, blurry eye-sight (oh, no wait...my glasses are just dirty and the prescription is old...scratch that), exhaustion, irritation, low blood sugar (it's happened once or twice....COINCIDENCE?!  I.THINK.NOT!!!), high blood sugar (I swear, it's happened at LEAST twice in the past 18 years), my wallet loses weight and begins to look sickly, fainting (when I walk past Abercrombie&Fitch or Hollister and get knocked over by that horrendous scent), clumsiness (my mom says I was born that way, but I walked into door/walls at LEAST twice, so I don't think that's natural), and extreme hunger...well, there's a whole book on this condition, but there's really too much to go into at this time.

BUT!!!  Despite the fact that I will be recovering for some time (mainly curled up reading Harry Potter or crying in a corner with a chocolate bar and a glazed expression)....I DID IT!

I pushed through the pain like a true winner and managed to find the necessities:
-Work shoes
-Prom dress
-Graduation dress
-Dress for my SISTER'S graduation
-Cartilage piercing
-New glasses

And a few other things I've been in need of for awhile.

I will tell you, looking for a prom dress has been no easy task.  I think I've spent more time looking for one than I've spent shopping in the rest of my 18 years COMBINED!!!!  Good gosh.  Pain in the gooney, may I just say!!!  I still need to accessorize (WHY, GOD, WHY WAS I BORN A GIRL?!?!?!?) but that can wait for another day and will (hopefully) be far less traumatic.

Despite my whining and dramatics, I DID get to spend quality time shopping with my parents this morning and then with my friends this afternoon.  See?  I can find the light in the darkest, most dreary situations! ;-)

No, I am extremely grateful for everything I've been blessed with.  Don't EVER doubt it!

Well, I really must return to my recovery period (aka Harry Potter and the Sorcerers Stone).

Peace, ma homies!

May, May, May

What?  May already??  Crap dang.  Not ready for everything that entails.

I'll do the only thing that makes ANY sense...I'll get sick to my stomach on a glorious spring day.  Right.  So sick that I spend most of the day sleeping and the other half, too miserable to study for upcoming AP tests.  Makes perfect sense.  Thank you, body, for being so reasonable.  I truly appreciate your kindness.

OK, I'm being dramatic.  It's something I'm quite good at when I feel like it.

All sarcasm and griping aside, today is a wonderful day.  "Why?" you ask.  Because, 21 years ago, my parents got married.  For obvious reasons, that is one of the most important days of my life...if they hadn't gotten married, been open to life, etc, etc...no Alex.  And where would this world be without me?

Totally kidding.

In all seriousness though, they are such a wonderful example of what marriage should be.  Nobody's perfect, but I have to say, I appreciate everything they've done for me.  They love me.  They trust me.  They're cool and crazy, but they're responsible and know the balance between "friends" (per say) and parents.  Not to mention their incredible love for each other.  I can honestly say, I hope that someday I meet someone who loves me as much as my dad loves my mom and who I love as much as my mom loves my dad.

They still sometimes act like teenage lovebirds (and after their weight loss...they even LOOK a little like teenage lovebirds!!) and even though it kinda grosses me out a little and though they embarrass me as only parents can embarrass their children...I love them and appreciate their love for each other immensely.

I love you Momma and Baba!!

*I was going to post a recent picture of them kissing in front of the Eiffel Tower (they went over Easter Break) but, they're my parents...and (no offense, Ma and Ba) but....EW.

Give your parents hugs and kisses, because, even if they're not mine....they're pretty awesome!

Peace!

Nostalgia

My, my how time does fly.

Today is the last day of my vacation.  Not sure how THAT happened, seeing as I JUST got here!!!
Tomorrow starts my last week at HSC (aka High school)
AP Tests and finals, graduation, prom...it's all just sitting there.  I'm not really sure how I got here...

As you may or may not be able to tell, I'm a little weirded out about all this!  I still remember being a freshman and viewing the seniors as this grand experts on life....HA!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh well, life is weird...you love it, you hate it, you move on.

Well, I have a last day of freedom, a pool, a dumb book, and friends to enjoy.  So if you don't mind, I will continue to blow off the last of my Chemistry homework (I'm a senior, I'm allowed to....all you youngsters out there, keep up with the grind) and enjoy myself.

Peace!

Vacatioooon!

Wellllll, here I am.  In Brasil.  How time does fly.  I can't believe it's already FRIDAY!!!!  My vacation is almost over and that fact makes me sad!  

There are aspects of this beautiful country that remind me a little of Honduras (where I go every few years to visit family).  But I think it's safe to say I've never been any place quite like this one.

  

I got here Monday morning and was so wiped out...all I could do is take a nap and drool all over Shannon's pillow (sorry, Shannon!!!).  But Tuesday-Thursday was spent at the beach.  I have to say that this just the R&R that the doctor prescribed (well, what he would have prescribed had I GONE to the doctor).

I still have had homework to do during this vacation but, all things considered, that's not too terribly horrible considering I've done most of it while at the beach and, really, if you HAVE to do homework, it's better to do it with a stunning view, don't you think?  Ah, the beauty of homeschooling. 

At the moment I'm recovering from a sunburn...I'm looking more "brown" now, but for a few days there I was a fried tomato.  Ouch.  That fact however will not stop me from going and spending the day by the pool with Shannon and my Chem homework!!  Hey, I only have a few days left, who cares if I'm a crispy tomato chip?  Well...my mom might if I contract skin cancer  Ah, oh well...the price we pay for relaxation!  With finals and AP testing coming up, this trip may preserve my sanity!!!!

This was my view as I did homework, not bad, huh?  Yes, I took this picture all myself, thank you very much!

Anyway, I gotsta go before Shannon smacks me! ;-)

Peace!!

Ode To The Thespians

Pardon me if I'm little rushed!!! In less than an hour I leave for BRAZIL!!! OH MY GOSH!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE TODAY IS HERE!!

I'll give you a brief recap of Tech Week and I may or may not (probably "may not") fill in with more detail at a future time.

Basically everything was going just dandy (which after the year of trials and tribulations which we had was unbelievable).  THEN CAME THURSDAY (OPENING) NIGHT!!!!  Storm knocked out the power and so we had to CANCEL A SHOW for the FIRST TIME in HSC Thespian history.  Quite the shocking event.  We DID have three shows, however by adding a Saturday afternoon matinee.

I can't believe how well everything ended up turning out!  Everyone brought their absolute best and the talent just blew me away!  I'm so proud to have been with this group since 5th(??) grade!  Definitely a sweet note to go out on...I just can't believe that that's the end of my high school acting career.

I do have to say, I am now even more inclined to consider the possibility of minoring in Performing Arts...ah, we shall see!

Anywho, I have to go do super important top-secret Student Council things before I leave!

Thank you to my Babes (In Arms..Ha Ha!) and thank you to everyone who came out to watch!

Peace!

Technically Mentally Imbalanced

Well, I know I have been incredibly absent from the cyber world lately.  Really can't complain.  I'm too busy to think let alone spend much time online!

You see, I know I haven't been able to shut up about it, but this week is tech week!!!  So close to the end!  Tomorrow is opening night.  "So why then," you may ask, "are you spending time online NOW?!  It's 10:30, Alex!! GO TO BED!!!"  Well, in a frightening turn of events, my throat is KILLING me.  So here I am, sipping tea, nibbling chocolate (SHH!! Don't tell my mom!  Not supposed to have sugar this week!  Oops...),  listening to the thunder and rain, observing this spectacular lightning show, and trying to clear out my inbox...quite the task I might add.

Basically though, I am just so happy to see this play coming together.  I'm so blessed to work with so many talented, some experienced, some up-and-coming actors and actresses.  Not to mention the hard-working crew/director/producer/musical instructor/pit orchestra/etc etc etc!!!!!!!!!!

Well, DANG.  I'm just surrounded by amazing people!  This is why I do drama...as much as I complain about...well...EVERYTHING along the way, during, and after...the way that everyone ends up meshing is just such an incredible experience.

Granted, I will now take this time to apologize to my fellow cast and crew.  I know my awkward dancing/comments plus absolutely no personal space bubble may make you uncomfortable or make you all question my sanity...BUT IT'S SO FUN!!!  Plus, I'm too exhausted and warn out and ALL of my personal space bubbles have been popped in this whole process of becoming "Jennifer Owen."  So, I'm now including you all on my awkward ride! ;-)

Anywho, I'm not making sense and I'm just about done with my tea (sorry, Harrison, it's peppermint with honey and not hot water with lemon and honey...I just can't do it!!) and I'm tired and would like to finish my chapter of Catching Fire!

Hopefully I will see many of you at the show over the next 3 days (!!!!).

Peace!

3, 2, 1...

Here is to my long list of count downs:

28 DAYS until graduation...

26 DAYS until Gabry graduates from college

24 DAYS until Francesca is confirmed...

23 DAYS until my AP Calculus test...

14 DAYS until my last Monday at HSC...

6 DAYS until I leave the US to go visit Shannon in Brazil!!!!!!

3 DAYS UNTIL OPENING NIGHT!!!!!

Looks like I'm about to DIE!!!!! ;-D

Heh heh heh!

OK, so I'm just riDICULOUSLY caffeinated and hyped and nervous and stressed and EXCITED!!!

Well, I have a busy life to live (as you can see!!!).

Peace!